I’ve been AFKing the Christmas event in RS to slowly bang out 20M Crafting XP.

I’ve continued to play way too much Milky Way Idle, especially now that they’ve added an “IronCow” (ironman) version. I really need to address that by setting alarms or something to force me to only check in on the game briefly a few times a day.

For work, I’m working on transferring locations. Today I let both the location I’d like to transfer to, plus my current boss, that I’ve made my decision. I’m very worried about how things are going to end up, and the only reassuring thing I have is that I’m beginning to make an effort to get another job entirely, which brings me to the next update.

Tomorrow morning I’ll be getting a call from a state resource to help me find new work, since I know I can’t trust myself to ever actually look for jobs on my own. Overall not too worried about it, just a bit worried that he’ll essentially say “uh… it seems like you have a good job now, and this resource isn’t really for people like you, so we won’t be proceeding further after today” after having experienced similar things so often before in my (adult) life.

As for this blog, I’ve slowly been dumping to-do list items into the ‘Goals’ page. It’s a complete mess, I’m a complete mess. I finished copying everything over from Google Keep today (actually the next morning since it’s past 12 AM as I type this), I’ll be trying to copy things over from my PC desktop next, and then it’ll be Google Sheets and Docs. I can’t overstate how much of a mess all of this is, and it’s becoming messier as I try to bring everything together. I’m legitimately worried about the mental state I’ve been in the last few/several years and these lists, essays, etc. strewn about really show it.